Tranquility

2005-11-20T01:53:00.000+08:00

i've made up my final decision. ending a five year relationship. theres was no fault in you but me. no one will imagine things will turn out this way even me myself. theres no turning back and i know it myself. everything was decided based on my own feelings. im sorry to hurt u. i dont wish to continue hurting u more.

*important: this blog will end here.

2005-11-15T20:02:00.000+08:00

Happy Birthday Van!
missed the early morning classes. lecture. went school in the afternoon and next for discussion for my project. tiring. waited for dear to end his training. waited for him for a long long time. idiotic boy. cheated me. make me wait so long. after was van's birthday celebration dinner. a birthday dinner without the birthday girl. yes wierd. hah. she had dinner with family some where else and only came after we had our huge buffet dinner. a japanese restaurant near cornation plaza. we had lots of salmon sashimi. almost died after dinner. so much leftovers that we had to play games. losers gets to eat the leftovers. hah.

finally van came after our dinner. we had a apple strudel as a birthday cake for her. next stop to a pub. everyone decided on opening a bottle of chivas. theres like a promotion for that! 98 bucks for a bottle. wheee. its funny getting high and drunk on a monday night. who would ever do this? only us! madneesss. still the drinking session was fun. had some guessing number game. finished the whole bottle in 2 hours man. hah. crazy. still everything was great!

2005-11-11T00:45:00.000+08:00

Yes! i'm finally legally eightteen. thannk you for those who called or messaged me to wish me. hhah. oh and especially gwen and min. thank u for suprising me in school. all was well planned. haha. and our supporting actor kenneth lim. hah. after school gwen followed me home to change and went town after dat to meet min and kenneth. the whole night out was more of chilling out at starbuck wheelock. dear suprised me by turning up dere. awhile later everyone left for home. boring. but overall still a wonderful birthday.

dear and i had our celebration today. celebrate my birthday & our 5th year anniversary. wheee. he brought me to esplanade. japanese food for dinner. had our favourite salmon sashimi. yum. next to haagen daz for foundue. damn shiok. he gave me presentss by the way. one a photo stand with edited pictures of me. never knew he was good in photoshop. haha. next a pearl necklace together with a pair of pearl earrings. only he knows i like pearls. haha. everything was planned by him. and it was totally awesome. i love him! oh left out one more important important thing. i went to sign up for driving. first step basic theory. oh my driving license here i come.

2005-11-07T22:50:00.000+08:00

this is the second week of school. it seems like projects are coming in one by one. stressful. due to lack of self discipline last semester results were bad but managed to pass and got promoted. this semester ive to work extra hard.
things to take note of :
1. do tutorial work.
2. wake up for the first class everyday because i always oversleep.
3. no skipping lectures.
4. concentrate.
5. full participation in projects.

so de-day is just one day away. the day ju can start taking license. club legally. smoke legally. buy cigarettes legally. drink alcohol legally. eighteen years of waiting to be this age. haha. this crazy. i know ive been saying this over and over for the past few posts. pleeasee bear with me till i turn eighteen. i cant wait. haha the most important thing to me is.. driving license!

2005-11-05T00:01:00.000+08:00

finally we all decided on what we should do for my birthday. unfortunately, 9th novemeber actually falls on a wednesday plus its the beginning of o levels. they wont be able to spend much time on that day. they got exams. arghh. with no other choices left. we have to celebrate on weekends. though its a few days after my birthday ahh whu caress. as long as theres a celebration for me. ahha. heres the plan.
saturday 12th nov 2005.
lunch.
i've checked up on prices at some hotels. like goodwood park.carlton hotel.orchard hotel.
prices are reasonable. food super good. worth it! spend the whole afternoon sitting there eating as much as u can. yum. hope everything turns out as planned. pleaaasssee.

2005-10-31T22:47:00.000+08:00

today will be the last day of the october month. finally the month of novemeber arrive. i bet theres plenty of people whom i know are waiting for this month to arrive. and that includes me. whee. a few days counting down to my birthday. i'll be eighteen. the legal age for almost everything. haha. anyway today also happens to be the first day of school. i missed school. im sick and sch was only for two hours. so borring.

2005-10-28T02:22:00.000+08:00

it is a must to have a dream. a goal in life. how wish time pass faster. so i'll be able fulfil my dreams. ten years down. how i wish i could open a flower shop. be a florist. a small little shop all to myself. which seem as though im all surrounded by flowers. wee. the scent of flowers fill the whole shop. mmm. i love. i get customers coming in getting bouqets of flowers. making the one they love happy. ahh i so wanna start living my life like that. <3

2005-10-27T21:02:00.000+08:00

everyday i wake up half the day is gone. sleeep late at night waking up late afternoon. hah. yes i know i'm getting bad to worst. piggg. dear went for his leg check up today. doc has allowed him to start playing. i doubt his words. hah. hes always cheating me. anyway he said he would b playing his "first" game tomorrow. after so long i bet he is dying to get onto the field. and im suppose to b going down to watch. hopefully i'll b able to wake up. :)

2005-10-25T22:53:00.000+08:00

after so much of working. earning cash for some shopping here and there. there was just a few more days to enjoy and shop. school is starting pretty soon. back to the same old routine. school home sleep school home sleep. what a boring lifestyle i have. actually presently doesnt seem any better. i've been staying home. sleeping or watching some hk drama shows. i some how just love lazing around at home. whee.

i went out today. went to dohby ghaut to meet dear. i was late as usual. he had his fun time playing arcade. as my punishment i had to sit there accompany him play his arcade. one game takes a few million years to end. boys boys boys. wad is wrong with them. wad so fun about playing those games. when u finish it just appears " GAME OVER "? after arcade we went down to suntec. he needs to collect his free phone. Starhub had some new stuff going on called i-mode and got him to try their new plan. with that he will receive a new fone. a samsung flip phone. which doesnt suit him. hah. too small to feminine. then we had dinner at a japanese restaurant at suntec. sudden craving for jap food. sashimi. <3 after that i didnt had enough of salmon so we had to go up to carrefour to get more salmon from there. yum. back to dohby ghaut we used the free phone wrap voucher that was given from starhub. phone wrap that samsung fone. it looks much better on him now.

2005-10-25T22:02:00.000+08:00

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2005-10-22T16:33:00.000+08:00

from today onwards its my time to enjoy. no more work. yesterday was the last day. also the event day. cisco voicecomm 2005. it was held in suntec convention hall. the whole thing was tiring we had to stand the whole day from 7 am all the way till 6pm. ushering. so boring. still i get paid seventy dollars for the day. happy. i've got money and have an aching leg. hah. straight away i spent all the money i have. went to meet min for some shopping. i got a bag a jeans and a belt. all for 80 bucks. wheee. not going to buy anymore stuff. keeping the rest of the cash.

2005-10-16T16:19:00.000+08:00

last night was a boring night. met mindy at 930 in town. no one else were in town jus the two of us. no plans no suggestions. clubbing was what we had in mind at first. unfortunately ju still has a month more to be eighteen. argh. loitering along orchard road. sitting at the benches. imagine how boring it was. oh yes last night mindy was so deprived of neo prints.she dragged me to take it with her. however these neo prints reminded us of the days when we were still in secondary school. how nice. the sweet fun memorable memories we all had during the ij days. im missing it.after awhile min ditched me. went back woodlands with hanni. steph and i left town and head to chinatown. why are we actually appearing in chinatown in such hours. hah. feels funny. met weizhen andrea bettina and celine there. dim sum supper. yum. then back home again. im bored again.

2005-10-14T03:28:00.000+08:00

absent from work for three days. first was a slight fever next come tummyache. must be that seoul garden i had. i'm a lousy cook. thats what darling said. hah. was suppose to rest at home today but my siblings and i were called down early morning to help out at mom's place. have our breakfast and start washing up and packing up after they close their stall. we did a quick job and allowed mom and dad to come home to rest. i know they are happy that we came to help out. after all dats our job as their kids. i love my family.wheee.

spent the afternoon watching tv. late evening had dinner altogether. i was quite bored after spending my friday at home. disappointing that a friday night and im not out. out of my area. maybe in town. however after awhile i felt lazy instead went over to hougang to meet up with weizhen. celine and bettina came along. same old thing. slacking at macs. but dear had all the fun. he went clubbing with his friends. indochine. i was suppose to go. lazy lazy lazy. i'm so lazy. plus i dont wish to spend my last fifteen dollars on clubbing. i'll ask mom for money tomorrow. anyway i spent all my money at macs. cab fare and drinks. argh. i cant save money. i hope i will be able to save up some cash and go club one of these days. before holiday ends. it would seem pretty stupid if i didnt club for this whole holiday. i wanna go club. jus one night will do. hah.

2005-10-13T23:32:00.000+08:00

didnt turn up for work two days. i wasnt feeling dat well. i dont know wads wrong with me. feeling a little weak. hmm. i was already on my way today work but when i was halfway there i decided to call up and say i'm not turning up. was planning to head home den. But changed my mind. instead went over to his place and rest there. at the same time spend some time with him. both of us were jus sleeping till late noon. after waking up he cooked his char siew. haha. which he left marinating the whole night. yummy. we left his place and went to causeway. our plan was to catch a movie and have dinner den home. all the shows were quite late and i've got to get back work tomorrow. so movie was cancelled. walked passed seoul garden and saw that one for one promotion with OUB cards. straight away we had our breakfast lunch dinner in seoul garden. quite worth it. hah. after seoul garden we went to the pasar malam beside causeway. i swear its his favourite place. he always drag me there. hah. we didnt buy anything at all. its all the same old stuff in there. boring. still i'm glad i spent some time with him. by the way i passed all my modules. no repeating. and timetable is out. this time is so much better than the previous.yey.

2005-10-08T20:25:00.000+08:00

we should cherish our love ones before anything happens. after my dear cousin's incident i have really yet to learn from it. everything is unpredictable. i'll learn to cherish my dear more from now onwards. no more neglecting. no more unreasonable. we already spent half our life together and i wish this will last till forever. one more month to our 5th year anniversary. how time have passed so quickly and unknowingly. i've planned to do something for him and thats to thank him for all the love that he has given to me. we simply went through so much to get together. i'll be right behind you from now onwards. everywhere you go. i love u.

music : Aslyn - that's when i love you

2005-10-05T23:24:00.000+08:00

its been many many days since i meet my poor darling. he has been neglected. got an off today to settle some stuffs. first have a good long sleep. slept for 10 hours and still not enough for me. oh my i'm a pig. accompanied mom & dad for a little while before i leave home. second went to get my contacts. i'm so unlucky when it comes to contact lenses. either i lose it or i'll tear it. wasting money to get another pair. argh. third meet darling and so kind of him to follow me all the way to jurong to get my laptop fixed. fortunately it is still under warrenty if not i'll have to spend even more. forth we went woodlands for dinner and watched a movie. into the blue. not bad. ha. finally a day to relax. happy.

2005-09-29T13:29:00.000+08:00

i have been busy lately. finally i get to sit down and blog about wad had happened. thank god that my cousin have wake up and is able to breathe on his own. however there would be a brain and his leg operation coming up soon after he gets much better. newspaper have been writing about his accident. yes and straits times have exagerated his conditions and caused a chaotic problem. many relatives my cousins classmates and friends were all so worried because of it.i know they jus trying to get more readers to read their paper. but theres no need of writing it too ridiculous. my aunt wasnt even interviewed by them and they jus copied the article from the chinese papers and wrote more craps about it which wasnt even true at all. lucky they are going to apologise for that if not i guess my aunt all will probably sue them.

working all day now. stupid telemarketing. early in the morning and i've to wake up earlie. this sucks. i'm soo tired and sleepy. argh. but ive to bear with this for a month and i'll enjoy the rest of my holidays with loads of cash. haha. this telemarketing job soon will make me lose my voice soon. everyday i call up companies and invite them to some cisco voicecomm event. ahh its getting so tiring and boring.

2005-09-25T21:29:00.000+08:00

once again i'm saying life is so unpredictable. early morning i have my cousin coming over my place and the next hour i'm going to the hospital to visit him. car accident. his injuries are terrible and heart breaking. yes it all happened with the fcuk-ed up car which banged him and landed him in intensive care unit ICU right now. really hope he gets well and continue living like he did. i really miss him. wad a screwed up day.

2005-09-25T03:04:00.000+08:00

he is finally back. spent the night with him yesterday den he sent me back home this afternoon. had lunch first at adam. how i wish we will last forever. every minute every second jus with him and only him. i've been trying to switch my sleeping hours to normal. for the past days morning was my night and night was my morning. i've to change in order to wake up for work. i'll be starting work in weizhen's uncle company doing telemarketing. starting work next week. nine in the morning everyday. hopefully i'll wake up and not miss work. i'm gonna earn this cash and save it for my license. car license which i'll be taking next month. i'm so excited. ha. late night supper. late night driving. wheee. i'm want to the first among my friends to get that license man. ask me for free rides. i'll gladly chauffeur whoever. ha.

2005-09-20T22:15:00.000+08:00

due to much lacking of sleep, i see that my eye bags are getting darker each day. ha. its unsightly and disgusting. yucks. i need more sleep. yesterday i spent my time at woodlands till late. helping out on that DIY gift that mindy plans to give it to kennth for their 1 mth anniversary. quite sweet. i did quite alot of work so mindy owes me one. hah. went back by the last bus and zhen came over. set up a blog for her. a blog for her to scribble her thoughts and saddness. thats sad.

darling boy has left for genting. will only be back on thur. i should b turning up for the party at club momo. everyone are going. friends , old classmates are all turning up. a chance of getting together. i'm so gonna turn up. hah.

2005-09-20T03:02:00.000+08:00

life is unpredictable.
watching one another grow up. everything that has happened to u is so traumatizing. i really hope u get well and live life to the fullest. stop torturing urself. be strong. theres a long road ahead of us. hopefully at the end of time we'll still be good friends as it is now. take care. i'm sorry for the doubting and all. i'll help u as much as i can. u've been a great friend to me. thank you for the friendship we share.

for my good friend's ex: i'm sorry for all the shit we gave u. we were all like u. we are all kept in the dark. she didnt tell anyone about wad has happened in her life. she is not a liar. it was all white lies that she lied about. its not about giving her chance right now. but to stand by her and trust her and believe her. she is having hard times. she has given all she can. let her life be better thats all i can ask from u.

2005-09-18T20:56:00.000+08:00

spent my saturday with my one and only darling. met in the noon and went over to safra tampines to get his passport extended. idiotic boy gonna leave me alone in singapore to rot during this holidays. he is going genting with the rest of the boys. no girls. thats why i'm not following. back to the topic jus now. after extending his passport we went junction 8. its beeen ages since stepped into that place. everything was so different. ha. he is worst he said he haven't been there since sec 3. ha. had lunch together at crystal jade. dry wanton noodles. Yummy yummy. then went for ice cream at haagen daz. i was damn full and bloated after that heavy lunch we had. at seven we went over to yio chu kang stadium to watch the final match singapore cricket club vs singapore recreational club. scc lost 10 - 8. after match we went over to the club at padang to have dinner and drinks. drinks was free flow beer and bourbon coke. all most all of the guys there were wasted. ha. it was funny seeing everyone around u going high and mad. had a fun time with all of them there.

picture of me and dear at scc. i was all red because of all the drinks i had. ha.

2005-09-16T16:35:00.000+08:00

new look for my blog. and i love this. i've edited here and there. i've jus spent about two hours doing this. i'm such an idiot in html. heh. i'm starting to feel bored and moodless towards the holidays. i've nothing to do accept sleeping and tv. cant go out everyday because of limited cash. this sucks. by the way, a great achievement i had last night. i spent only three dollars the whole day. was out with min kenneth and the rest. far east dinner to cine arcade to checking out rouge to centrepoint macs to eat den to pool at paradigm but closed then again pool at parklane there. and tmr i'm going to accompany darling to yio chu kang to watch the rugby finals. yey.

2005-09-14T21:45:00.000+08:00

the day has arrived. thank god exams are over. stress are gone. freedom and enjoyment is begining.yey a million times. ha. however, theres one more thing i've to bear in mind the next semester i really have discipline myself and concentrate on my studies. cause i know my paper i did today is definately for sure a fail. i have to repeat this module. the paper was bad i couldnt remember anything that i've learned. my mind was blank. terrible.

this is disappointing when sometimes you doubt your close friend's words. i'm sorrry that i doubt ur words but things jus appear in this manner. u r getting wierd. i dont understand u although we have been friends for long. i hope u guys actually understand that i really dont bother or will interfere in ur lives. because things are different now. our lives are different we all live differently and i still care for u all but not as much. theres no more "NAGGING", thats the past.

2005-09-13T03:10:00.000+08:00

i mug the whole night yesterday then entered the examination hall without a single sleep. my eyes was closing each time i read one sentence of the question. there was this burning sensation on my face especially the eye part. this happens whenever i'm tired. argh. irritating, it makes me feel so lazy and disctracted doing the paper. i answered all the questions within 45 mins when its a 2hr paper. i dont understand why i took such a short time completing the paper. i wrote down all the possible anwers i thought of. each questions was jus 3 lines? when i finished, i scanned through the examination hall and notice everyone thinking hard. i peeped at their answers. it was like half a page full for 1 pathetic question? where did they get so much stuffs to write? was i actually learning the right thing?

came home after the paper and went straight to bed. my comfy little bed. slept through till seven. dinner then tv. i didnt miss america's next top model 4 this time. yey. the pictures they took are so cool. although its kinda freaky taking pictures in a coffin. every episode shows great pictures. so different and unusual. it simply made them look completely different from how they are actually. why didnt michelle get out this week. why why why. why tatiana. she got this pretty look. michelle has nothing but this thing for crying jus to gain sympathy. anyway she isnt that pretty or wow.

2005-09-12T00:00:00.000+08:00

i havent been posting anything recently. these days are jus mugging. mugging for exams. jus three more to go and i'm done with it. wednesday is the day which i'm looking forward for. the final paper. yey. i'm planning on getting a job during holidays. a temporary part-time job. saving up for the plans me and darling made. bangkok trip next year. the more money i have the more i can shop. ha. i'm dying to be in bangkok. the food. the clothes. oh my. i better carry on with my revision now. bleah.

+ Happy birthday Jazel +

2005-09-03T01:49:00.000+08:00

yey yey yippiee yey. it's finally the end of the week. which means now its the holidays. ha. i've four papers coming up in a week time. but i havent started revising. starting soon. n this is the last time i'm gonna say this. i wanna get over with this and continue the next semester with no repeated modules. cycling last night from sengkang till serangoon. steph's place and looked through this pictures she have at home. laugh laugh laugh. ha. den cycled back home. spend my days sleeping till late afternoon these days and out in the night. wad life am i having?

2005-08-30T20:03:00.000+08:00

this is the final week before holidays begin and exams arrive. headache. went swimming yesterday wit dear and then we had dinner with mindy and kenneth at causeway. then home. watched the maid this afternoon. stupid mindy teo last minute never watch with us. the show is really freaky and a few times scared the shit outta of me. i nearly died. died of heart attack. ha. gonna swim again tmr. i need to exercise and tan a little bit more. oh and night cycling later on. yippee. i fogot to add on i've been stuck to this show recently. the L word. gawd its so lesbian. i'm neither bisexual or lesbian. i'm watching for the sake of watching? ha. so into that couple jenny and tim. sad love story they have. i've to stop soon.

2005-08-27T02:59:00.000+08:00

no matter how angry or sad i am i still love all my darling friends. how long have we not gone out altogether? i'm glad we did today. although all of us had others stuff to do today we still did spend that few hours together. i didnt turn up for school today. overslept as usual. by the way i have to apologise to my classmate, weilong. i'm super sorry i overslept and made u miss ur assignment hand up time. i'll try to persuade matthew pon to accept yours no matter wad and that is if he doesnt accept. i'm sorry. i went to school in the evening with mindy to watch our boyfriends play soccer. aerospace students vs lecturers. wow. a final score of nil for both. draw. after all lecturers aint lousy. they still can make it man. after soccer, thammish min and me went for dinner at bukit timah. pratas mutton briyani teh peng. yummy. met dear alex and kenneth after that and their turn to have dinner. town after dinners to meet all the other rest of the guys. far east slacking to mac cafe at lido. and home by nr6. i'm tired after a long day.pictures for today will be up another time.

2005-08-26T00:40:00.000+08:00

disappointed. sad. tired. wads happening to the people around me. i've been cheated for so long.i hate you guys lying to me. aint all friends suppose to be honest and true to one another. never mind. forget it. the past is the past. hope u guys get wad i mean. i hate to be kept in the dark for so long.

2005-08-25T01:38:00.000+08:00

skipped yesterday's and today's morning classes. rushed through my assignment till wee hours and ended up sleeping late. i always cant drag myself up from the bed and ended up skipping it. please help me wad can i do to make myself stay awake and wake up on time. argh. last night almost killed me the stress i felt was already at its maximum. i know nuts about economics and had to write an analysis on an article. stupid dumb dumb me chose an article which was so "chim" and so not understandable. i had to seek help from people like nina yauting and gloria. nina helped me throughout the whole thing. thank god she was there to help if not i will never be able to submit my assignment. geez. turned up for my german class. yes and khai cheated me. he said he is going so i turned up for class. but when i got there khai was missing. idiot. passed my german test. wee. i was so afraid i'll not manage to pass this one. i'm so happy. german classes are ending pretty soon. i'll probably continue this one. since i'm halfway through. met dear after german and went causeway for dinner. pasta mania. met mindy and then kenneth. slacking at cavana and left for home at eleven.

2005-08-21T22:09:00.000+08:00

Happy 19th Birthday Earl!
everyone around me are turning older and older. how long more is it gonna be mine. i hate my birthday. why am i born during the later months of the year. hmpf. wad a boring life stayed hm for two days already. bumming around these days. i miss my darling. our relationship is now stable. i'm having faith and trust towards this relationship again. i hope he understand why i was reacting retardedly to wadever he did before now.
nothing much to say today.i'll just end off.
* a few pictures uploaded in gallery [19 agust 2005]
sneak preview of some of the pictures we took. left to right: shengjuan me mindy eunice yauting tham hanni , sheng juan and me , hanni me and min , tham me and mindy.

2005-08-20T02:09:00.000+08:00

i'm left with a month before final semster exams starts. havent been doing well with my common tests. i doubt i'll do well this semster but all i'm hoping for is i pass and not repeat any modules. next week is going to be long. test, assignment to hand up and table topics. oh my this is stressing me out. yesterday was relaxing and a great day. went out with dear after school. went walking around and had lunch. had lunch at plaza singapura japanese restruant and tried the paper steamboat. both of us were figuring out why doesnt the paper get burnt? thats so lame of us. its nothing special about there and its kinda expensive. met mindy and kenneth after that at taka we sat down for two hours simply chit chatting. how fun. bumped into the rest at cineleisure. one big group. twenty of us were all together. after a while some went off and some went hanging ard else where. and dear sent me home. i love you.

2005-08-17T01:53:00.001+08:00

i'm done with my project for cats. stupid creativity applied thinking skills. my group came up with a earring holder. artifact turned out great. but i didnt do much at all. theres many other stuffs on hand. projects, tests, assignments, tutorial works jus piled up on me. this is stressing. which idiotic fellow said "poly is relaxing". since when. ever since i stepped into this school my life had not stopped a minute to relax and enjoy. so where that sentence popped out from? wednesdays has officially become the swimming day. i have been spending my every wednesday over at dear's place. we'll go swimming and tanning. and when the early evening comes i'll have to leave the pool and make my way back to school for german.i love being under the sun nowadays. i wan to get dark. i'm too fair.

2005-08-13T04:54:00.000+08:00

i've spent my whole night trying to put password for my blog. its all because of u. u r so damn ma fan making all of us scared of u. u r crazy. never mind i shall not mention the person whom u wanna read about. she doesnt wan to b mentioned in any of our blogs or anything. but i failed its already 5am in the morning and i still cant figure it out. this sucks. i'm not gonna add that pass thingy. screwed up msn messenger also. i dont know how unlucky i can get. i guess my email got hacked again. by i dont know who. whoever is jus so bo liao. i was doing my stuffs leaving my msn aside. suddenly i just got disconnected saying i've been signed in else where. and where the hell is that? today is just so pissing. i've gotta change email add again. this time a harder password so whoever is hacking it wouldnt be easy. u asshole.

2005-08-12T23:28:00.000+08:00

HAPPY 18th BIRTHDAY GWEN
12th august my darling gwen tang's birthday. she is now officially 18 and legal to club, to smoke, to drink. when is this gonna happen to me? three more months and i just cant wait. we went to fish & co. at the glass house the one beside park mall for dinner together. azy and andreana came to suprise gwen with a cake. food at fish & co. was good. yummy. and after dinner gwen all went momo to club. i cant go. tomorrow gotta wake up at 8 am for my sports and wellness stupid interclass. and earlie this morning my darling came to pick me up from home and we went to adam for my breakfast plus lunch. went school after that for project discussion and he went for class.
* new pictures for gwen's birthday. view it in photo gallery.

2005-08-08T00:35:00.000+08:00

yesterday afternoon i stayed home. night went over to hougang green to meet up thammish and zhen. macs have now changed to twenty-four hours now. sat at macs chatting till one plus. i saved cab fare cause tham's dad sent me back.how nice. today as usual i stayed home too planned to study but failed to do as planned. ended up watching tv the whole time. i am so lazy. i really have to change my attitude towards my work man. bro bought a new digital camera. shiok. and i'm gonna make it mine. hah i'm not going school tomorrow morning for class gonna skipped that and turn up for evening's common test. i really need to pass this.

2005-08-04T20:11:00.000+08:00

my second visit to the doctor. i thought i had recovered but mom says i was coughing throughout the night and was irritating her. but i never knew i was coughing dat badly. wadever met her after school at the clinic with my sister both of us were having cough. next monday i'll be having my business statistics test2 and i've not been touching anything on that. i already missed my test 1 and final semester exam will be calculated as 70% instead of 50%. i'm gonna be so dead. i'm so not good in business stats. i suck at it. anyways this is me gwen and mindy. took it when me met up last thursday. love this picture we all just look great in there. by the way its me who edited that.

2005-07-30T02:22:00.000+08:00

this is the worst night ever. went out at ten to town to accompany my poor friend who is caught in a situation where no one will ever wish for. breaks up are so terrible. we went down to town and we didnt even have any plans to do at all. dear, shane, tham and all his other classmates were on there way to club. RAV a club which looked so plain boring. i didnt even wish to step in paying dat twelve bucks on that kind of place. thats so impossible. i'm outta of cash this few days man but i rather spend it on something which i can actually enjoy. sat opposite the club with dear and my friend. and we bumped into gwen my darling gwen who didnt even told us she was there. then my friend and i sat there and was being so indecisive dont know whether to go off or waste our twelve bucks to get in. dear was pissed with me being so indecisive. i wasted his time when he could have joined his friends all earlier. its all my fault. i spoiled his night. its always me.

2005-07-28T23:34:00.000+08:00

thank god i pass all my papers that i had. microeconomics was what i feared but fortunately thankfully i pass it and was a low pass which i am grateful for. i dont have to retake or wad so ever. met up with all my darlings today. all we did was the normal stuffs slacking talking walking. thats so us.the usuals. smart darling dear scored so well for all his tests and is recieving plenty of cash for us great grades. his study and earn business. when he do well he will get cash from us mom. how lucky if my moms actually gives me cash for good grades i'll definately do well too. oh yes i'm still not recovered from my one week longed sickness. i'm coughing like mad as though my whole lungs will be coughed out soon. hope i'll get well soon and i'll be able to eat so many things that i've been craving for.

2005-07-22T21:48:00.000+08:00

common tests are over. my headaches my stress-ness are at last.gone. but as a result of that i became ill. yes ju has fell sick and ju is also pms-ing please stay away from her. my throat hurts now having throat inflammation but i just wont stop stuffing fag in my mouth. and unfortunately it made my throat worst. having the period time always makes me feel moody, quiet and lost of appetite. all i had for today was just a teriyaki chicken burger from mos. how proper and balance can my meals get. having many problems with my health this few days. first throat second i feel a pain in my body around my rib cage third stomach cramps forth not having enough sleep. what is happening to me. ju is in pain. she needs help.

2005-07-21T01:11:00.000+08:00

blogging is all i can do nowadays. i have been spending my everyday either home or around my neighbourhood. how boring can life be. friday will be the final test that i'll be taking but there aint any break after this common test week how tiring can that get. i've been a lazy ass these days sleeping in "earlie" morning and waking up during "earlie" nights. in simpler ways means i sleep at about 4am and wakes up the next day at 5pm. yes i'm a piggie i know. finally friday i'll be able to meet my darling gwen. its been a long time since we met up. we have lots and lots to catch up on. and as for now i'm rotting in the living room hoping to get out of hus but there isnt anyone i can meet up with. dvds is now my friend to accompany me through this night.

ju gonna work hard and pay attention in class. not gonna be absent nor late for classes. less games less dvds less online less phone after this common test week. concentration is all ju needs. just leave ju all alone. give her all the time she needs. no relationships, no fooling around wif work thats all she must do.

2005-07-20T19:10:00.000+08:00

i woke up earlie in the morning all by myself jus to get prepared for my microeconomics common test. hopefully i am able to just pass that paper. studying has became the hatest thing in my life due to many distractions. firstly its the laptop i'm having it seems to be the only entertainment i have at home. secondly the dvds that i got from malaysia. thirdly the phone in my room which makes me wanna call my darling girlfriends to check hows things lately. thankfully this tests i'm having now are just common tests but i theres still some time before the end of semster exam. i really gotta buck up and dun get distracted so easily. i bumped into james this noon after my test. i felt guilty and at the same time sad. i don't know why but i felt that way. things just seem as though we were all along friends. probably it will jus be better for both of us. i still do wan to treat him as my friend some one who i can still talk to. but guess some how or rather there would be a barrier between the both of us. all want to do now is spend time to do my stuffs including the usual chilling out wif my girlfriends. oh and i still cant get over that thing about she saying me. interfering to every problems. if u still have comments about me i'll just tell u something i cant be bothered and now my life seem less fustrating and i dun wish to add on to my fustrations by bothering over this sort of problems. believe it anot i'm not bothering anymore. i hope to end this stupid thing.

All i want now is jus my closest girlfriends.

2005-07-19T23:25:00.000+08:00

i did hurt him last night jus by telling him my feelings werent as much as it used to. our differences and gaps between us made me feel distant away from him. he jus doesnt seem to b the old self. the one whom didnt really bother abt me which made me feel more clingy to him. now it is the other way round now. shouldnt i be happy having a boyfriend who loves me and always there for me. wad the hell is wrong wif my thinking? i simply doesnt suit someone who loves me more than i love him. i'm a wierd girl. i need some time to think and sort out my thinkings and plan. all i ask for now is a little bit of space. i'm sorry for wad i've done to u. i've been having stupid problems from the people around me.i know i am a bias person and always take sides with the person closer to me. this is me and a terrible character and its hard to change me. u can dislike me for who i am but if u r my close friend u will den realise how close u r to me.

2005-07-18T23:25:00.000+08:00

life is definately full of shyte. problems jus keeps on happening. i dislike my life my every single thing. i have bee having a few times of reflection thinking wad i've done. i've done too many things to hurt the people around me. i hate to hurt u, i hate to make u angry, i hate to make u feel so insecure, i hate to make u feel so unassured. i just hate the way i've been treating u the coldness between us. the quarrells we had simply made our relationship terrible and horrible. i am so grateful for the memories u gave me. but now our closeness has became worse. wad has been happening between us?

2005-07-07T02:32:00.000+08:00

i miss all my friends. how i wish time can return back to the past and always remain in secondary school life. the times where we play truancy and go hang around at other places doing all sort of stupid things. everything is changing and we hardly can meet up. i miss my darlingss. poly life is always said to b a fun and relaxing place. how true can that be. ever since started schooling in there i have plenty and plenty of work. one after another presentation. soon will b common tests i wonder if i'll be able to pass it. and i'm jus saying passing and not scoring well. dear and i are having a tough time together. each nights will b quarrelling over different things. i really hope things will be better soon and everything turn back to normal. i miss all the stuff back in the past.

all my darling good frens: i miss u guys totally. all of us should meet up soon. especially gwen tang where have u been?

2005-07-03T06:23:00.000+08:00

we got back again. i know its quite expected actually cause i jus cant live without him. he simply means more than anything else. it was my fault and i wasnt thinking properly at that time and wanted to get out of my life which had plenty of questions. questions and more questions by him which actually made me too stress and pressured. and now we are okay and it wont happen again. but i'm still sad and jealous abt wad happen during our breakup period and it definately gonna take some time to get over. all because of her the inferior side of me is starting and i am feeling so shity and disatisfied with myself. i dun wan to be so unreasonable to him but i just had to jus to make myself feel better and assured. i'm sorry i had to do this but if i dont i'll go mad.

2005-06-19T01:42:00.000+08:00

my life changed. i broke off with him. the whole thing is all my fault. i need a break a time for me to concentrate in my studies. one month of school and it was totally stressful and pressurized for me. every week we have new presentations and a whole lot of difficult tutorial work to do. i dun understand whatever the lecture is teaching. it was a hard decision to make but i truly hope he understand wad i'm going through. he can blame me for all he wants but deep down i actually dun wish to let go. i'm feeling much better after breaking up. life seems more relaxing and able to concentrate on school work. after some thought i think i should actually start taking up a cca to keep myself fit and healthy. haha and i decided to join joyce all in touch rugby. this is so ironic of me taking up sports. hehe

2005-05-28T21:47:00.000+08:00

my eyes are closing slept for a few hours last night and had to accompany my bro to send my grandparents into malaysia to take their coach to genting highlands. bro and i went for breakfast after that in malaysia. had dim sum for breakfast the pork ribs were damn good and it was damn cheap. so much cheaper eating dim sum in singapore. sis bro cousin and me went down to sim lim in the afternoon to get ram for my laptop upgrade it to a better speed. bro drove us around the whole day and brought us to farrer park for lunch. my favourite prawn mee stall has moved out of there and i got the location for some guy in the coffee shop. trust me that prawn mee shop serves the best soup ever. yummy yum yum. i'm craving for the soup right now and my darling.

2005-05-26T21:24:00.000+08:00

i missed my first lecture on business statistics. woke up late so contiue sleeping till 1030am and went for the next accounts lecture. it was a mass lecture about 320 students. sat alone again because i know no one. damn loner. my darling james leow just went to see doctor and his wound is sort of getting better and soon will be able to attend school next week. finally if not he is gonna miss so much on his work. get well soon darling.

2005-05-25T22:33:00.000+08:00

just got home from school lessons ended late as my german class starts only at 6pm and ends off at 8pm. german is fun the people there are nice. in school today i had stupid modules today. creativity applied thinking skills (cats) and sports and wellness all these are jus extras and really boring i almost fell asleep during my cats tutorial. my tutor is an indian man and talks alot and most of it are boring stuff nothing intresting. and for sports and wellness i'm suppose to take up a sport for that and its a semester thing. took up touch rugby wif candice so i've some company. how fun can this get when i seldom attend physical edu in school. finally my laptop is sent over to my place its a ok only laptop not too good but can use is jus enough. shouldnt ask too much school fees and laptop are making a hole in my parents pockets and i really feel bad about it. one good thing about this laptop is it is light cus i hate carrying heavy stuffs. never mind anything will do.

2005-05-24T23:53:00.000+08:00

first day of school. everything went wrong i woke up 7am in the morning just to get to school by 9am for tutorial classes. i was just in time however i was lost in school looking for block 56. luckily there was not tutorial or workshop lessons this whole week. but i actually woke up so early for that. i felt totally stupid and dumb going school such a early time and ended up no lessons. without any choice i left school and went my darling's hus to catch some sleep. slept till 1 pm and left to school again for lectures. thankfully i found my way and was there early 5 mins. i was alone i knew no one there there wasnt any tutorials so that i can meet some of my classmates. my lectures are combined wif business it students and met candice there chij sec school mate at least i wasnt such a loner then.last lecture ended at 430 and went town wif shane khai dawn earl amanta and shane's fsv classmate.and back hm school starting at 8 am tomorrow.

2005-05-22T22:06:00.000+08:00

i'm starting my blog once more. this time a new begining in my life going to an unfamiliar enviroment. i've been rotting around ever since i stopped working on feb. working is extremely tiring and boring. finally school starting this tues and i'll can be able to study again. for the past few months my brain stopped functioning and i've not learnt anything new. i really wish my course wouldnt give me a hard time.

2004-12-28T15:58:00.000+08:00

28 Dec 04 4:04pm
I'm in office.. all alone .. haha damn boring my eyes are in pain seeing too many numbers .. pheww.. i'm so sleepy i wan to sleeppp... Dear is meeting me after work for dinner.. hah i miss him.. 3 more days to new year eve and i still havent plan anything .. i bet he is too lazy to go out again and we probably end up at his place like christmas.. bleah.. ahha met Siti last night at our neighbourhood.. although we stay jus opposite one another but it so hard to bump into one another.. she is busy working and chionging in late nights and me boring life home after work or not compass slacking.. aye.. no life at all.. ahah i jus went back school todae to collect my cheque.. the good progress award cheque.. ahah 150 buck sia.. but the money is used up for my contact lens that i dropped.. stupid me .. lost one side ..dropped it into the basin.. argh!! aha Actually i kinda miss school.. haha

2004-12-25T01:12:00.000+08:00

25 Dec 04 12:13am
It's Christmas!.. nothing much i'm at dear's place now.. we didnt do anything this year .. came over abt 5 plus and had dinner wif him and his mom .. We had Steamboat.. after dinner we jus sat down in the living room watching tv.... boring... Yes.. and wad a Christmas he made me angry.. ahha in fact jealous.. his ex crush messaged him merry christmas and ended off wif a "i love u" .. ahha wouldnt i b angry?? argh!! i'm not pissed wif him but that girl.. how could she... arh.. forget it... we r okay already...

Merry Christmas!

2004-12-16T23:28:00.000+08:00

16 Dec 04 11:29pm
Its been a long time ever since i blog.. Have been super busy lately .. getting settled down in a new enviroment.. my work place! ahah I'm gonna keep my blog real simple after its jus a blog of my own jus to help me remember stuff in case i forget.. i've got short term memory.. anyway zhen leaving tomorrow to Bangkok till next wed den she will b back.. actually i'm gonna miss her.. haha never mind tmr is deb's birthday and i am suppose to meet up wif her.. i miss everyone.. i've been stuck in the office for 8 hrs everyday but the things that i do are very simple.. and time pass fast if i'm having loads of work to finish up.. its suppose to b like dat ahha.. okay.. i met up wif dear jus now.. for dinner and went back to sk library to pick some books from the library.. oh ya.. ahah i'm sucha a good girl i have improment in my work and received the good progress award of 150 buck.. ahah money!! ahah i need that ...
Happy Birthday Deb Deb!!!

2004-12-02T22:13:00.000+08:00

2 Dec 04 10:15pm
The start of a new month.. i've been busy lately.. jus started work.. at dears mom's company as a clerk? ahha doing all kinda stuff.. quite fun i guess?? .. jus a little bit tired due to the earlie morning.. i wake up at 7 am when work starts at 9 am.. all because of the traffic jams.. argh!! hehe dear still not okay wif his leg.. he still have to attend those therapy thing .. hope he recover soon.. anyway he starting school next week.. hah wonder when my sch will start? aye.. ahha anyway i miss all my frens.. gwen , zhen , min , kah yan and deb deb.. after the graduation nite we havent seen each other at least a week!! gotta meet up man.. anyway kah yan coming back soon.. oh people.. dun forget our trip to Hong kong next yr.. please save up ur money and we will go shopping there!! ahah i cant wait!! ahha

2004-11-28T01:53:00.000+08:00

28 nov 04 1:48am
I've been sleeping late.. hmm.. the night after graduation dinner we went chiong .. ahah anyway grad. nite was alright .. almost everyone looked different.. i'll put the pics up in the gallery once i gather all .. anyway ahha the food was good.. shark fins yummy yum yum!! ahah zhen and i ate ours so fast so we can get our next scoop of it.. ahha it was so gawd damn delicious.. ahha we left earlie cause it was so boring and all were so excited to go to chiong.. left there abt 10 plus and headed back to the hotel rm to get ready to partie!! ahha seline's fren drove us all to angels .. the pub where everyone can jus go in.. ahah its not bad actually cause there was a large number of us partying together all of us zhen's frens and drea's frens oh.. and i forgot its zhen's birthday on that day too.. ahah and my neighbour Tim.. ahah chionging was good but i left earlie was a little bit high and my head was hurting so much .. zhen , seline , drea and me left abt 2 leaving gwen, deb and mindy behind.. and fell asleep abt 3 plus haha they onlie came back onlie abt 6 plus in the morning and they were still so awake to soak in the bath tub.. weetardids.. hah so much of relaxing after the end of o levels.. i'm sure gonna miss them after we all go our separate ways.. sighs.. anyway last night i went to eat supper wif min, zhen,seline and her guy fren.. they drove us to bedok there and ate the noodles , chicken wings and some seafood .. i feel damn fat now man.. ahaha eating supper is not good at all man.. ahh but after supper we drove the car ard checking out all the clubbing areas.. jus for fun.. seline brought us there to make us feel tempted.. hah she is so bo liao man.. ahh but all of us were so slack in our dressing.. after that we drove to kent ridge park to see night scenery.. ahha there was n one watching the scenery .. more people were all at the back of their car.. haha i shall not elaborate.. u shld know.. yeap.. ahah and we all went hm abt 3 plus again.. ahah so i havent really had much sleep at all.. and today.. i met my darling .. yes he is still walking wif a limp.. ahah poor thing.. but anyway he doesnt need to go kl or Melbourne anymore cause of his injured leg.. sucha a waste for him.. but his health is more important i dun wan his leg to b worst.. i met him at meridien he was wif ben and darrell.. played pool den dinner.. and both of us left to far east.. den to ps for shopping in carrefour for food.. hah den went bata to get some slipper so that i can wear for my job at his mom's place.. i starting work soon by the way.. probably this wed .. ahah i wan to work! aha

Happy Birthday Tim & Zhen!!!

2004-11-23T16:14:00.000+08:00

23 Nov 04 4:15pm
I'll always remember toay.. haha its the gawd damn end of my o levels! ahha and i'm so happie... yey!! and my dear is back frm sri lanka.... i'm so happy... ahah woo.. ahah here come all the parties... hah

2004-11-21T14:47:00.000+08:00

21 Nov 04 2:48pm
I cant stand those people interfering in my wad i say .. those immature people leaving their names as anonymous hoping that i wont realise whu they r.. ahha actually they r quite obvious.. those people r definitely des frens cause the way they typed abt min its so obvious they r siding des. and u blardy monkeys i'm not stupid.. cause i'm not so immature like u guys to do these kinda stop silly things.. idiots.. how old r u already still do this kinda thing no wonder so old already still taking o levels. i seriously dunno wad to say pity u or to b angry wif u.. hai..losers.. i despise ur stupis fren more than anyone else.. although me and mindy had an argument recently i still believe i'm right to side her... wad that blardy guy had done to her is way over the limits.. he better watch wad he say.. there is something that mindy doesnt wanna say to make him lose his reputation and make him a loser among his frens if he doesnt realise.. ahha anyway that guy is really pathetic.. anyway like wad gwen said desker or geylang will b good.. oh.. if u dun have the money for that stop wasting ur money on those stupid games or those silly stuff that u anyhow spend on.. save it up probably one fine day u have jus enuff to go there for a night.. haha ..and stopp wasting ur time in trying to break up a loving couple jus because u think u have been liking her since u were 14.. that doesnt mean anything u r jus a willing party.. and u arent fit to love and to b love.. stop doing stupid things go save up the money man.. oh .. and I think we should do some survey.. i jus realise now a days there is an increase in immature boys.. calling mindy jus to ask her to watch out if not if she has no more frens.. i really feel sorry for them.. how old r they already yet they still talk this way.. and if they realise they always backstab one another and doesnt admits sometimes.. grow up please??.. argh!! ahah cant stand them.. sighs..

2004-11-21T03:00:00.000+08:00

21 Nov 04 3:02am
2 more papers and my o's will end.. finally.. hah time pass fast.. heeh i'm in a happy mood today.. cause james leow will b back tmr.. and i dunno when.. cause that guy only called me once through out the whole 5 days he is there in Sri Lanka.. He really can stand the smell.. ahah i was out at compass todae wif zhen den to ang mo kio wif she and min for an hr of pool.. its been a long time since i touch the cue.. aha i completely forgot how to play that.. after that we went back to compass and slack till 1130 and all went hm.. i cant sleeep.. i wan my darling to call me.. i miss him badly..stupid dumb dumb never call me! hmpf! Oh.. and the day before i was a lamp post ahah followed zhen and drea to watch a movie.. Shutter.. the show is damn freaky.. but good..worth watching.. aha poor zhen sat in the middle of me and drea and both of us were clinging on to her sleeves while watching that..hah i had to b the lamp post cause i wanna watch that show.. and james leow doesnt watch horror movies cause he is scared.. ahah so big yet scared of ghosts.. aahhah After the show we followed drea to shop for her graduation nite clothes.. haha and i saw a skirt at far east 30 buck and i'm gonna go get it... ahah Tim my neighbour was out wif us that day.. he had no where to go after his frens left to church so he tagged along wif us.. all four of us den went for dinner at cine .. met khai ,dawn and fahmi .. den left to sengkang and tim,zhen and me slacked at mos .. laughed at the gay boy working at there.. ahah Tommy... ahha he is so funny..

2004-11-18T20:36:00.000+08:00

18 Nov 04 8:38pm
Absence does make the heart grow fonder
I am missing my darling right now.. After he left ytd he never call me at all.. i'm worrying for him.. but i bet he doesnt care.. must b happily enjoying his time dere sniffing the indian scent of Sri Lanka.. ahha and the gambling sessions they have in their country's casino.. hehe.. when every minute pass, i miss him even more.. I love him!! hmph!! but at the same time angry dat he doesnt bother to give me a call at all.. sighs.. this happens when guys r out happily.. they always forget their steads haha the fun they r having always make them forget abt us! haha.. anyway had my paper 2 accounts today.. the paper was alright if i had prepared myself earlier .. but still i manage to balance my balance sheet.. ahah i almost scream when i saw that i balanced it.. ahha thats madness but the feeling of balancing ur accounts always makes u feel freaking goodd.. ahha I wan my darling to call me and i can tell him this that i balanced it.. ahah i'm so used to telling him everything that happen to me and the feeling of not able to tell him right now feels like shit.. thats why i miss him even more.. sighs.. 1 day jus pass.. 4 more days to next mon den he will b back.. bleah.. heh Oh and.. I wanna add on that guys who treats their steads as a substitute for someone else r losers.. totally.. and they arent suitable to love and to b love.. cause those people doesnt know wad is LOVE ! If u r a guy u will never do that to a girl.. and... if u feel ur stead is unbearable or wadever.. u never should backstab her and tell everyone abt her bad points cause if u really love her u should never ever do that.. u shld accept whu she is and not pick on her.. We girls must not fall for this kinda of guy.. even if that guy was taking someone as a substitute for u... it seem like that guy is so faithful and nice cus he still think of u but if u really think abt it.. he is being a bastard.. thats bcus if he can do that to that girl he probably will do the same to u and taking someone as a substitute is the wrong.. wrong.. wrong.. way to love someone.. I'm sayin all these cause i cant stand this kinda of guy.. Thats wad happening to this mindy and her bf.. Although we quarreled recently .. the anger in me has faded off i'm jus okay wif her now.. i'm feeling so agitated bcus i cant stand the way that guy treats her.. i hope she moves on and dun waste her time on that useless guy.. she already wasted a yr plus wif him letting him treat her as a substitute of someone.. i think she shouldn't waste some more time feeling sad over this again.. the right one will come by .. not now but when its time he will appear....

2004-11-17T16:51:00.000+08:00

17 Nov 04 4:53pm
The one week break cus me to b in deep shit.. it put me in a holiday mood.. and thats wad i'm doing now.. slacking and feeling sick of seeing those books on my tables.. argh!! help me.. and dear is away.. I either concentrate or dun.. ahha but i dun think i will b able to.. cause i'm missing him right now.. he jus left abt 3 plus.. haha to Sri lanka.. he is so excited abt this trip there .. they say they will b going into casino and they jus wanna gamble.. oh wadever.. ahah i'm so happy cus he said he will miss me .. that silly boy.. i jus love the way he treats me now.. much better compared to the past.. i'm feeling lucky now.. and he jus mean alot to me.. sighs... he will only b back next week .. my weekends r free.. hah.. and soon end of exams.. and my parties and grad night! ahah i cant wait!

2004-11-12T20:47:00.000+08:00

12 Nov 04 8:48pm
I jus had a 5 hr shopping spree.. ahha i jus love shopping.. all girls love shopping.. i spent abt 200 hundred today jus on clothes and heels.. aye.. heh met zhen in the afternoon and headed to city link.. the clothes dere r cheap like mad.. i bought 3 phants there.. 1 formal and the 2 r casual wear.. oh.. and a heels jus for less than 30 buck?? hmm and is so nice... kae after walking round that shopping centre we left and went to bugis.. Shopping at the bugis market is sucha fun thing.. things dere r cheap and nice .. can bargain some more.. ahha got 3 tops from there and a bag.. fuck today is really a shopping day!! and i jus love it!! hehe.. i wanna go shopping again!!

2004-11-11T17:43:00.000+08:00

11 Nov 04 5:50pm
This is how i spent my birthday this yr.. hmm .. Went to eat buffet wif gwen, zhen, thammish, deb, seline and cassy at suki sushi den went to k pool for a few games of pool and went to coffee express outside California to chill.. chit chat and stuff and went to k box.. zhen seline and all sang like hell.. but i didnt had the mood and wanted to leave to me my dearest baby.. I couldnt leave unless i drink the whole cup of martell mix wif coke at one shot.. because of him i did that and left to give him a surprise.. hah my unexpected arrival at his door step surprised him and he took out his present for me.. a SRU bear.. hahha this is actually part of his plan for my surprise birthday gift.. went home after awhile at his place and came hm and sleep..

Yesterday.. met up wif dear to celebrate my bdae and our 4th yr.. we met at 330 pm and he was late.. his excuse was the bus took damn long.. ahah wadever.. nvm we watched ladder 49.. the show was alright but he finds it boring.. ahah right after the show.. dear kept complaining abt his toothache .. its wisdom tooth.. non stop complain.. in was in a bad mood after that .. ahha all bcus of his toothache our plans after movie was cancelled and we ended up in bukit merah seeing the dentist.. hhah.. took a cab back to sengkang and went for dinner at kopitiam.. he ate porridge and i ate fish and chip .. thats to replace my fish and co. dinner.. ahah argh! ahaha he quite poor thing ahha never see him in such great pain before.. ahah after dinner we decided to go hm.. i went to the toilet and he went to carry out his surprise for me.. ahah he got me a bouquet of roses .. 21 of it.. he said it meat "i'm committed to u".. hah wad a surprise.. ahah and i totally love those flowers he gave me.. hehe we reached hm and took plenty of pictures of gg.. ahha we jus love her...

Today... nothing much i'm hm stuck at hm doing nothing.. freaking tired and its so boring... i love him!

2004-11-08T14:18:00.000+08:00

8 Nov 04 2:20pm
Its jus one day away from my seventeen birthday!..ahah thats not important .. the next day will even b more important it would be me and dear's 4 yrs! ahah.. i cant wait. Finally i get a break after a long week of o levels papers.. maths over sighs.. paper 2 sucks but paper 1 was definately good.. ahah hmm.. How pathetic to b sick on my bdae.. I've been sick for the past few days.. really bad.. theres cough, flu, fever and sore throat.. and doctor gave a whole lot of eekie yuckie medicines.. totally sucks.. well.. it did help making me sleep cus i had sleepless nights during the o levels.. all bcus of stress stress stress!! Jus a week or so and o levels will finally b over... ahha

2004-10-31T21:33:00.000+08:00

31 Oct 04 9:34pm
Last day to O levels.. my darling is at SCC stil they r having some dinner because of the rugby sevens.. oh ya!! Dear injured his thumb.. ahha poor thing .. my heart aches seeing him injured but he kept insisting its not pain and he is alright.. hai.. i miss him.. badly!! and not jus that i'm missing out all those fun that they r having there.. all because of o levels.. WHEN is this going to finish?? never mind i shld think at the bright side.. after this 1 mth of hard work.. here comes my freedom, my parties and my new life!! ahah anway.. i had sleepless nights.. and all thanks to the cough medicine that got me drowsy and make me sleep.. how abnormal i am.. sucks.. i'll live on medicine all my life? no way!! i dun wanna feel immune to those eekie yuckie medicine.. wads wrong wif me?? if those medicine gonna make me drowsy when i'm taking exams i'm going to b so dead.. thankfully my darling will b my personal alarm clock who will wake me up.. hehe i love him.. i better go study.. tmr is the day!!

2004-10-27T22:32:00.000+08:00

27 Oct 04 10:32pm
Its only 4 days more to O levels.. i'm feeling more and more panicky.. time pass damn fast when u r sitting for a major thing.. sucks!! ahha i've been studying at bukit merah macs.. the place jus give me that kinda of motivation.. however it is so far that i dont spend much time there... nothing much to add on cause it had jus been alot of studying here and there and is damn boring.. 3 more weeks and o levels will b over... and i cant wait for that day to arrive!! and my birthday is coming too!!oh and i miss u dear dear!!

2004-10-23T22:53:00.000+08:00

23 Oct 04 10:59pm
I can use my fingers to count how many days more to o levels.
The major event of my life
Great!
Ask me if i feel confident abt it or am i ready to sit for that?
My answer is NO!
Stress, tired and shity is all that i'm feeling right now...
I jus dun feel that i have studied enuff for it.. i need MOTIVATION!!
I didn't study much today in fact not a single bit.. argh!!
West Coast Macdonalds a place to chill and relaxation.
Ended up chilling and chatting!
Wow! so much of studying .. I'm jus plain lazy!
Went to Padang at 5 to watch him play.
West vs East. He is in West. West won.
Dinner at Funan IT Mall. NEL back to Sengkang.
Mos at compass. Maths. Home.
I'm so lazy to type.. ahha

2004-10-21T18:41:00.000+08:00

21 Oct 04 6:43pm
I had a nap jus now.. the medicine took effect straight after i ate them up.. hate those small little things it makes me feel so drowsy and its so blardy small wonder how it works.. its disgusting to b sick at this point of time?? exams nearing and everyday these small tablets will jus make me feel sleepy and lethargic and become an excuse to skip study.. argh!!how can i survive till o's starts? probably i will fail.. sighs.. wad am i gonna do? k if i can spend time not blogging and complaining abt now time haha i probably have so much time to study right?.. hmm i shall stop blogging so often .. anyway i think that person read my blog and messaged me something if i'm not wrong cus i was sleeping and i deleted the message away... was i dreaming?? haha .. wadever it is good for her that she read it.. we have gone our ways and we no longer have anything to do wif one another.. haha Dear has jus finshed his exams.. yey! he better get his ass down my place here and accompany me study hehe.. i'll definately concentrate better wif him ard.. ahah yeah right.... hehe

2004-10-19T13:59:00.000+08:00

19 Oct 04 1:00pm
Its 1pm exactly..and i jus woke up .. i had a bad day yesterdae forgive me for my bad attitude but its over and thats the past.. i will never let dat person affect me especially when its nearing my exams.. I wan nothing to happen to my O levels.. A person like her will never change so wads the use of brooding over it? And she is no longer a fren.. ahhaa Now! back to my happy mood... I better study later there no time left anymore... dear having his exams now and we must work hard together.. sighs.. i havent seen him since sat dun tell me i'll onlie get to see him again only on sat?? argh!! i miss him...!! hehhe Met Thammish yesterdae night at compass.. me zhen and thammish slacked there and chill.. everytime when have this kinda meeting we always tend to rack up the past and talk abt it.. haha its always like dat.. I better get going now.. and study ....!!!!!! Anyway its kah yan's bdae!!
Happy Birthday Kah Yan!!

2004-10-18T02:37:00.000+08:00

18 Oct 04 3:46pm
She jus went over the limits.. she incurable now.. atrocious! does she even have some basic courtesy? or manners? she proved me right that she really is a ill-mannered girl.. i'm serious.. she doesnt even feel thankful.. is she dumb or simply stupid?! I'm really pissed now.. wad is wrong wif this freak.. Early in the morning jus bcus of u the teacher called me to look for u.. u r a liar u told him u gonna hand up but do u have anything in hand? NO! cause u were so lazy .. u had the time to act as though u were going sch in front of ur parent and play stupid games and stay hm and go out wif ur other frens but not do any useful things.. i wonder if ur brain works? or has it turn rusty due to the lack of using it after u got suspended frm sch?.. wake up!! u r not sec 1 , 2 ,3 or 4 .. u r sec 5 and 17 yrs old.. u got a freaking o level to sit for.. by the way ur attitude sucks dun think that i owe u cause i dun! its more like u owe me get this into ur big head!!

18 Oct 04 2:37am
I finished studying jus now abt 2am for my science practical tmr.. stress and i can't get to sleep probably bcus of the o level pract. and this person that has got on my nerves!! I dislike her and officially 1st on my dislike list i shall not say names. Those who knows her good for u and i really needa bitch abt her and i'm going to!! I cant stand her and now i'm not back stabbing her or being some hypocrite she is no longer a frren nor a good fren not to mention close fren. By the way if u r close to her and u think she is nice or wad-so-ever be it !this is my blog and have all rights to say wadever i like.. She is irritating, irresponsible or shld i say no sense of responsibility at all!! U jus fcuking lack of that.. towards school, ur own stuff and ur fucking self! I have given u enuff concern, advices and nags as a fren but u chose to ignore thats why u r now in this state. U do stupid things , play stupid games and slack ur life. And now it doesnt concern me! I'm so happy that i wont get to see much of u for the next 2 mths but i'll b happier after that cause u will den b outta of my world! U r so proud of urself , ur bf , everythin.. U said i was damn uglie to me all of a sudden when i done nothing wrong .. i know that was meant to b some "joke" of urs and tis is nothing big but still i jus cant stand the way u think u r damn good i'll never forget this!! and stop comparing ur bf with others cus no one really bother! U r so thick skinned , ill-mannered and so automatic ( in a bad manner ) and do not feel embarrass with wad u do.. ur attitude sucks be it to ur parents , school, bf and to ur fren. How much scoldings and advices jus wont get into ur brains. U jus took advantage of everythin and everyone ard u. U ask so much abt this thing and dun turn up.. Promise to go sch and i brought ur stuff for u and u never turn up.. and dun even bother to collect it frm me.. and at the last minute u call me and get me to bring it for u and emphasize on " REMEMBER" to me .. u r jus being a complete retard i swear!! u r so freaking thick skin! and for christ sake u r not a princess in this world... stop living in ur stupid world it is so stupid and foolish.. not everyone have to please u.. and u r jus beyond hopeless to me now.. and anything abt ya has nothing to do wif me anymore.. I wash my hands off u.. i'm not a little bit sad abt this whole thing ... I do forgive and forget but u r the first i'll never forgive cus its not worth my forgiveness.. Jus leave my world as soon as possible....... I'm feeling much better and going to bed now.

2004-10-17T13:25:00.000+08:00

17 Oct 04 12:27pm
I had a nice sleep last night and i jus woke up!! ahha I'm so tired because the previous night i was rushing through my art work and 8 boards which is suppose to b my research and stuff (prep. work) I stayed up the whole night and went to sleep at 7 am!! I was really tired and needed some sleep. haha in the end i only had 1hr plus of sleep cause weizhen called me and i woke up at 830?? we met at compass at 9 and wanted to go for breakfast but she had no money.. hmm and i skipped breakfast. We went to school after meeting Siti to hand up our art. thats why i was rushing it.. ahha it's O level thing and i'm still so last minute! hehe.. stayed in school for awhile to touch up on our art stuff before handing it up. Finally at 1230 me and zhen left. She was heading to town and i went over my darling's place. I slept there.. aha and he cook lunch for me cause i was kinda sick and was so freaking tired.. hehe.. We left his place abt 8 plus and went to Causeway Point for dinner.. Our fav. Ban Mian. ahaha and ate dessert after our dinner. We went over to my place after that and he was playing wif GG for while and left my place at 11pm. Wad a simple day but yet i'm still lovin' it!!Anyway I've got eyebags and pimple on my face!! argh!! Stress stress!! hmpf!!

James and GG: haha i've no idea wad he is trying to do to her

Miss GG: She is so kewt!!
* more pics in the album

2004-10-15T14:19:00.000+08:00

15 Oct 04 2:20pm
School has ended and i'm on study break now.. Now its jus less than 20 days to O levels.. Oh my gawd!! hmm.. have been studying lately meeting up wif my dear to study.. hehe His exams are next week .. Thinking abt it.. when my exams starts he will b leaving to overseas for his rugby.. sighs.. Nothing much happen on those days that i didnt blog.. jus that art has to be handed up tmr morning and i havent really finish my art.. I've gotta rush through it today till midnight i guess? oh! and i'm damn pissed off wif someone argh!! damn stress this few days anyway and next monday is Sc Practical .. time pass damn fast!

Theme: Metabolism
This is my completed art work for O levels

2004-10-10T17:15:00.000+08:00

10 Oct 04 5:17 pm
Tuition was cancelled. argh! A last minute thing and I was planning to go for it todae but he always have something on. what the fu*ck. Anyway talk abt yesterdae. hmm I had a great time yesterday. finally get to meet my ever dearest darling. hah We met abt 3pm and went straight for our 3.10 White Chick movie at cine.. thanx to his mom who booked the tickets for us other wise i doubt we will b able to watch it. ahaha we had the best seats, right at the back and in the centre.The show is definately good and funny. hehe After the movie, dear and I left town and went to Suntec. We went all the way there jus to get the Radio headset selling at carrefour. It was having a 20% discount there. hehe bleah bleah.we went shopping!! ahaha He got a tshirt and i got a new tube top. yey!! Its been a long time ever since i got something new to wear.sheesh.. We had dinner at Crystal Jade and ate our favourite shrimp wan-ton mee. yummy yum yum!!hehe I feel so hungry now at the thought of it.. ahah We went home after dinner and while on our way back i receieved a fone call from sis saying that my darling dog GG went missing!! at the point of time tears were pricking my eyes and rushed down like rain fall.. dear who was beside me got a shock and was so so scared. ahha at was embarrassing definately! aha cause opposite our seat in the train was 2 guys. they stared straight at him and he had no where to hide himself.. hehe We rushed back home immediately and went for a search ard my neighbourhood looking for that poor little thing who went missing.. thank gawd we found here in the end .. she was found by some people and they kept it. they saw us looking for a dog and called us to go get GG back. poor darlin. happy happy!! I found her if not i'll not b able to sleep without her by me..hmm .. Dear stayed for my cousin's bdae cake cut and watched tv. till abt 10 he left.I feel so bad making him worry for me and embarassed him in the public. ahha i love him so much.. thanx for being there when i needed u JAMES LEOW!!

2004-10-07T14:42:00.000+08:00

7 Oct 04 2:43pm
No school for me.. my self-proclaimed holiday.. Dear went for court jus now.. and everything is fine jus that he had to pay a fine of 2K and ban for at least 18 mths.. hmm.. so I'm able to take my license before him! aha.. poor thing.. he was waiting so long for that license but now he is banned.. argh!! hmm.. anyway I'm so love wif the Ralph Lauren Blue ..it's damn good!! and the smell of it totally rawks.. its so.. addictive.. I so wan him to spray that on him so i can smell it all the time!! aha.. I left my lala land at abt 1 pm hehe was so tired and later on i've got tuition in the evening .. sucks its so damn boring .. dammit! I still have no idea wad to do for my birthday!! Dont forget everyone.. it's 9th November!!

*Ju's love life: going 4yrs wif James Leow Yin Ze

2004-10-06T18:00:00.000+08:00

6 Oct 04 6:01pm
Just met Diana at the nearby 7-11 to chill out and have some chat and was finally eating my lunch? I was starving .. didnt wan to spend much so got a cup noodle and thats all for lunchie! hmm.. dear gotta attend some court thing tmr.. hope he is gonna b alright .. all thanx to him for getting caught by the police for driving without a license.. argh!! now getting into so much craps from those police.. hmm its a boring day today had some health talk during assembly.. damn boring but we had freebies.. ahah wtf.. It was just some vitamins. Trying to relax now and later on start on my study plan.. I'm so addicted to the book Gwen introduced to me "calling romeo" some love story and its not bad.. I'm starting to miss him again.. every single day every minute every second.. I cant live without him!
I love him!! He can upset me , annoy the hell outta me and make me question about our relationship, but some how or rather he always know how to break my mood and then put me in the mood I was in in the first place and make me smile , laugh and love him again.. He jus mean so much to me and make my life so happy!

2004-10-05T19:38:00.000+08:00

5 Oct 04 7:39pm
Met Gwen at Compass jus now .. suppose to be studying but we both haven't seen each other for ages so decided to leave those things that makes our head burst aside.. books of cos! ahha so much of meeting her darling boyfren in the evening hmm.. She got stood up by Lawlor.. that sucks.. hmm never mind she have me at least... I've been missing my darling boyfren ever since i last saw him on Sat after Darren's chalet.. wonder wad he is doing?.. Gawd! aha i've no idea wad to wear on Grad Night! If i dun start thinking of it now it would probably affect my studies ahha.. School is boring to the core! So crap... The teachers come and go and for like 2 periods for every single subject which takes up an hour plus? Worst still.. 3 periods of Social studies for today's time table.. It's killing me every minute.. Especially under such stupid humid weather.. argh! disgusting.. sheesh.. I'm going school the whole fucking week in case some teacher give some exam tips.. hmm I must work hard and study smart! hehe James Leow is having exam breeak next week!! yey! he can come find me at my place and we shall study together.. I cant wait for exams to start. Get over and done wif it! Thank the Cambridge ahha I do not have any papers on my 17th birthday and my 4th year wif him.. hai.. see how time pass? so blardy fast.. It seem as though i first met him last month or something.. phew! I dont have to study on my birthday haha.. Another headache!! I dunno wad I should do on my birthday!!?? I hate it when I've to think of wad to do.. haha forget it.. I'll probably jus go out and have some dinner wif him and my darling frens and count that as my birthday.... sighs.By the way, it's Andrea's birthday tomorrow!
HAPPY BIRTHDAY ANDREA!!

2004-10-03T11:00:00.000+08:00

3rd Oct 04 11:01am
I'm gonna take a few minutes to do some blogging before i go bathe and den study.. haha.. I'm sucha a pig!! I slept from yesterdae afternoon at 4 pm till now? ahh i didnt have dinner last night at all.. and dear was like calling my phone looking for me .. hehe he went to play soccer despite being so tired.. he is crazy.. aaha he totally loves sports more than me.. haha great! I'm gonna go start studying soon if not i'm gonna fail for my subjects!!!

2004-10-02T15:10:00.000+08:00

2nd Oct 2004 3:31pm
Its the start of a new month.. hmm.. i stayed over at darren's chalet last night and jus got back.. I was so dirty and the smell of BBQ remained on my hair!argh!I got home and had a nice shower.. hehe Last night was fun .. lotsa people were drunk and vommits were all over the house.. eeeks.. I wasnt sitting and enjoying hah i had to bbq all the food and serve those people who were there and at the end of it cleanning up the place was me and dawn's job.. hmph! not relaxing at all.. ahha but never mind if we dont do it i doubt some other people will tidy up.. herm... I gotta know this fren of tham's called Faith. yeah.. she is pretty.. ahha if not why would she win the ngee ann school belle thingy.. ahhaa ANYWAY! starting from tmr i cannot relax.. but to study and its jus for this 2 months till o' levls ends.. I must work hard! this time my prelims was totally crap.. a L1R4 of 22 pts. and L1R5 31pts. I won't make it for Jc.. hm anyway i dun plan to go there.. ahha

2004-09-28T11:28:00.000+08:00

28 Sept 2004 11:28am
I missed school today. My brains were not functioning and was still in lala land! so i rather stay home and relac. hah.Its so freaking boring at home alone? everyone either in school or work. argh! how boring life can get? hmm.. I'm missing him badly ever since last night.
he is jus so important to me right now.. and I cant afford to lose him ever again.. I'm willing to sacrifice anything for him and stay by him no matter wad happens.. after so much we gone through he is the person i love most and it will only b him forever.. i love him so much!! I certainly miss him so much now..
Finally some one is back home.
Its my mom.
I'm seriously dying of boredom.
Help me!

2004-09-26T16:39:00.000+08:00

26 Sept 2004 4:40pm
Finally prelims are over... but thats nothing to b happy about.. cause it means there is jus one month left to o levels! Cant wait for o levels to end... argh!! and i will b able to play all i want.. ahah yesterdae I was at Sentosa watching the final match.. and SCC won the game and this is their 3 yr winning this championship.. Dear and I followed Nigel's car wif Ben, Gloria, Manfred and Brandon to the SCC.. Dear and I went for dinner at Funan at BK first cause he was very hungry.. and back to SCC for another dinner.. their celebrations for the game.. I totally enjoyed my day wif all of them.. all of them were so drunk and had gone insane.. aha they crashed the hockey's dance and dinner party..and that party became part of their celebrations.. haa their were a few indian drunkards and they were dancing like mad and watchin them was fucking hilarious.. had so much fun but still there is an o level coming up.. and dear will b going away for a month right after my o levels ends.....

2004-09-19T20:37:00.000+08:00

19 Sept 04 8:38pm
I was at the match yesterdae as usual my every saturday routine.. went to yio chu kang and watch the rugby match.. SCC won.. yeap and i followed back to the club wif the whole lot of dem.. Dear and I went to funan food court for dinner after his bathe at the club.. hmm.. both of us at minced pork noodle not as good as mom's but it was so hot! we both complaining that it was spicy!! haha straight after dinner we went back to my place he was super tired after a long day a 6 hr of sports.. and only 3 hr of sleep the night before.. cause he went out wif his frens and i was home studying till 4 plus waiting for his call.. hmm and went to sleep.. but he has to wake up earlie the next day because of some attachment thing in school and he still stayed out late that night... who ask him.. ahaha no choice he went home after sending me back home.. I went over to his place this afternoon and collect some stuff.. at woodlands i bumped into Mindy who was on her way to Bukit Timah Shopping centre to play Lan.. some online game that she and her bf are addicted to it... ahah guess she is not going for tomorrow's maths prelim anyway.. hmm.. dear and me quarrelled when we met.. it was my both's fault i was being sensitive and he was so not concern abt me this few days.. he was stressed wif work and so am i.. but he forgot abt me.. at least i cared for him.. but he didnt .. hai.. he was so not b bothered abt me.. and making me feel sucha burden to him.. but the matter was settled and i'm not his burden!! ahah and he loves me!! yey! ahah.. I miss him.. and he probably playing soccer now.. although he has some project to do.. hai.. i can handle him.. he jus loves sports...... but i studied this afternoon at compass till now.. I'm so afraid of tomorrow's paper!! I must sleep earlie today i dun wanna miss my paper again!! It's maths and i definately cant miss this!!

2004-09-17T01:46:00.000+08:00

17 Sept 2004 12:48pm
I missed my biology test!! I spent my night studying preparing for that paper and i end up not taking it.. I hate it! How could i missed this paper?? I feel terrible today.. its jus not my day at all.. I overslept miss my fu*cking paper and got irritated bcus of my tuition teacher!! argh! He was explaining a maths quest. on circles but he was kinda stuck and i told him roughly the answer and he jus acted as though it was he who thought of it.. and dat really pissed me off!!hai.. i really gotta do well for maths.. i have jus screwed up my sciences and i cannot afford to screw up my maths..I definately must do well at least a A2 or something......and hopefully i will...

2004-09-14T21:46:00.000+08:00

14 Sept 2004 9:48pm
Accounts prelims is finally over.. I stayed up last night burning midnight oil rushing through accounts but still i think i will probably fail this.. this paper sucks it is extremely difficult. Ten Year Series aint that difficult.. wads wrong wif my accounts teacher??.. I have a 1 day break tomorrow and hopefully i can get to meet my dearest darling.. haven't seen him since last saturday at the match. I'm feelings lethargic today.. falling asleep every moment.. Jus one more week or so and prelims will finally be over and i just can't wait for that day to come!! ahah actually i'm feeling real disappointed cause i cant do my accounts... argh!! Haven't done any real revision on any subjects and sad to say O's just 1 mth away from my prelims.. Wad a boring day, boring life? I'm home.. and my dear is at Scotts eating Haagen Daz .. *falling asleeep..*

2004-09-09T14:26:00.000+08:00

9 September 04 2:27pm
Its a boring day.. i dun get to meet my darling.. wont b seeing him till sat.. hai.. anyway i jus watched this movie called "Shuan of the Dead" abt humans and zombies.. ahh quite scary and funny.. hmmm.. i'm so freaking tired.. i slept at 3 plus am last night because i was revising on maths... doing past yr paper... hmm.. anyway it was quite good.. I met him yesterdae change of plan we didnt go chinese garden to see lantern festival instead we had dinner at west mall.. Swenses.. ahha I ate salmon and mushroom baked rice and he ate breaded chicken.. ahha and we went back to his place for dinner again!! ahah cause his mom cooked and so we had to eat dinner again.. stayed there watching tv and abt 930 i left and we went to causeway point.. sat at Cavana there and talk till 11 plus and i rushed home for my show on SCV.. ahha I cant miss that..!!

2004-09-07T16:56:00.000+08:00

7 September 04 4:57pm
I got up earlie this morning and went to citibank in town jus for my mom.. I was so so sleepy.. hmm.. this week is my one week break the sept holidays.. hmm.. but next week i gotta a tiring one.. prelims for the whole fu*cking week.. i dun wanna have it.. but do i have a choice?.. hmm i slacking at home whole day long.. nothing but tv and movies ... downloaded it frm internet.. ahha and i have a whole lot more to watch.. hmm.. yesterdae i had Prince and me and 13 going 30.. todae i have View from the top and mean girls.. i missed all these shows.. ahah got to watch it all alone.. hmm.. tomorrow i'll b going chinese gardens to see the lantern festival thingy.. ahah where else to go in Singapore..? ahha jus have to go there to find something new in this tiny red dot singapore.. I'll b meeting my darling.. aah can't wait to see him.. the last time i saw him was sat?.. ahah can't wait!! ahha i miss him loads... its holidaes for me but not for him.. he got school.. hai.. cant meet up at all.. until his school ends.. never mind.. at least i met him.. the day before we had some "talk" i complained he didnt spend time wif me that much.. cause of school, trainings and frens.. i didnt mean to complain to him but.. we jus didnt have time for other things except meeting up for dinner all the time.. hai.. never mind.. its hard for him too.. but i still love him..

2004-09-05T01:28:00.000+08:00

5 september 04 12:29am
I jus watched Ella Enchanted. downloaded it from internet.. i love fairytales.. haha that show is good funny and sweet.. Why are we so modern, high-tech? I wanna live in those days with castles and eeverything.. I waanna live in the past.. hmm I'm starting to miss my dear.. though we jus met in the afternoon.. hai.. oh anyway SCC lost to SRC.. is quite sad.. we had dinner after the game went to compass kopitiam to eat kwuay chap.. ahha is dammn good.. aha we both like it.. and we took bus to my place usually we walk back cus its jus a 10 min walk frm compass but wadever we both were tired.. haha and we took my darling G.G out for a walk and fed her some dog snacks that we bought at some new opened pet shop.. hahaa dear at his fren Roger place for some party? ahah and i'm at home how fun?! aha wadever .. he is not calling me too cause his phone is running low.. argh!

2004-09-03T13:20:00.000+08:00

3 September 04 12:21 pm
Had my physics prelims todae.. and i think i screwed it up.. i did not study much for it.. spending my time doin art and art and more art.. ahah but finally i'm done wif it and i had it handed up todae.. ahah finally done wif it..and now i have more time to study ... i'll b meeting my darling todae.. finally i get to see him.. hmm haha and tomorrow!! ahah cant wait to meet him.. i'm jus waiting for time to pass so i can go and meet him! ahah

9:02pm
i'm at his place now.. aha i'm using his lap top.. hmm he is busy doing his homework on some family hah .. very retarded hehe anyway his mom is back .. haha we had dinner at his place.. I prepared the dinner haha i cooked spaghetti haha hmm..oh ya his mom just got home and bought some new levis phants and she gave me one haha cause it was too small and i can fit in so she is giving me.. ahha so retarded hmm.. i'll end here i'm leaving his place soon anyway..

2004-09-01T12:39:00.000+08:00

1 September 04 12:41pm
It's teachers' daytoday and a public holiday..hehe and i do not need to attend school! yey! ahhaa i slept at 3 am last night jus to rush for my art.. and i am so tired..i went to KAP yesterdae to study for my physics and at the same time wait for my dear dear to end school. we went dwn to far east after we met to get some measurements done for some suit that he need for his nationals ahha.. its kinda confirm that next weekend he would b going off again but to Sri Lanka.. ahah we had dinner at meridien after that and had a few games of pool after dinner.. ahha and loser must send whoever home.. ahah of cos i lost to him.. ahah he taught me how to play after all.. ahha and i send him to his place and took a bus home.. haha it seem so funny cause i'm sending him home.. ahha but at least i spent more time wif him.. ahha i miss him totally.. aah

2004-08-25T17:23:00.000+08:00

25 August 04 5:23pm
I took Pe todae.. ahah my class played against one another in touch rugby.. ha okay it was fun.. however the field sucks cause it made all of our body itch.. ahah my opponent team was rough ahah my classmates are the ones.. ahah they grabbed my frens like hell.. ahah they all are like bigger than me and my team mates.. ahha and i fell.. had a small bruise on my knee.. and it hurts.. ahah anyway.. he is going off again.. wad the hell!!!!!!! ahah another weekend without him.. he jus have to go.. but its not me to decide whether he should go anot.. how sad.. hmm..

2004-08-24T17:44:00.000+08:00

24 August 04 5:50pm
I skipped class today after recess are like free periods I rather spend my time at home and study and at the mean time do a little of my art. My art is like 20% done and I've yet to pass it up.. Stress again.. Soon I'll go mad wif studies. haha Zhen , Gwen and Me escaped from school straight after recess haha we ran down the hill as fast as we could to avoid being seen.. ahha They both came over my place for that YSL that Seline gave me.. that pack of cig is extremely good.. nice packaging and smooth.. ahah it is a black box and looks damn classy. ahah I'm intending to keep that box after i finish.. haha they were here to check mails and bleah bleah and watch scv ahah .. we were watching some stupid ghost show which was very hilarious .. yeap.. they left and wanted to take a nap instead i went to do some revision on maths.. ahha i was doing some past year o level paper 1 and i scored a distinction.. aha so happy.. without the help of any calculator.. hmm.. anyway dear is selected for the trip to thailand this weekend for rugby again.. Actually I dun wish for him to go there .. i rather he stay and take part in the SCC game this weekend .. at least i'll b able to watch it and get to see him.. sighs.. haha i miss him.. this thurs will b the start of my prelims and i havent really start revising for my subjects.. this sucks.. and if he is going ... i'll probably spend my time missing him instead of studying ahha.. and i'm gonna meet thammish soon!! aaha i miss thammish...!!

2004-08-21T22:16:00.000+08:00

21 August 04 10:14pm
Dear is away during this weekend.. he went to malaysia for rugby national thing.. and i'm left alone this weekend. But still.. i went out and i jus got home.. Went shopping at queensway after tuition at 1pm.. Anyway i bought a new von dutch t shirt, 1 pair of ear rings and a necklace.. haha i'm so bored wif without him.. I completed 1 layer of my art and it took me damn long .. at least a week cutting my paper cut. Argh! and i have to hand up next week and i still have 5 colours more to go.. i'm dying!!! ahah I havent been touching my books at all.. except for art? hai.. i'm so tired... I am having eyebags due my late night cutting my paper cut! hehe he will b back tmr!! ahha yey!

2004-08-15T21:14:00.000+08:00

15 August 04 9:14pm
ahah i still prefer this blogskin.. hmm simple and plain .. hehe i am damn busy lately hardly have time to come online to chat or to blog man.. ahah I've been doing my art almost everyday i have got a month more to finish this paper cut before handing it up for o levels.. argh.. and there is alot more to cut .. Anyway i got a fucking c5 for chinese .. stupid me .. why am i having this fuck up grade.. ahah i didnt study at all.. and during that period of time i was not in the mood to study as dear broke off wif me .. hai.. wasted if not this time the chinese i can heck abt it.. haha wadever.. hope for improvement in the 2nd chinese paper.. ahha i wan my o level result slip to look good man.. ahah i'm so bored... i wanna stop studying .. i'm feeling stress.. but prelims is in 2 weeks time.. woah.. i'm gonna die!!! ahah

2004-08-08T14:40:00.000+08:00

8 August 04 2:40pm
a stupid day and i'm home.. everyone is out and not me.. he have his training his matches.. i'm having a fucked up mood todae... thats because i am tired and wif his stupid fone which has no reception at his fren's hus. Pissing me off.. i wanna go out i wanna see him badly i miss him.. some how or rather i jus feel that i need to spend more time wif him.. if not in future when exams come i wouldn't have any time.. and right now r the holidays!! thats why i wanna have time wif him.. but i doesnt seem to b any different from the school weekends and we meet on sats only?.. hai.. i needa cool down... and will b fine.. i miss him.. i jus got him angry wif me cause of my fucked up mood swing.. hai...

2004-07-27T16:12:00.000+08:00

27 July 04 4:12pm
i recovered ahha.. i'm no longer sick hehe jus got hm frm sch.. had practical and ended school late todae.. i missed two periods of social studies and followed gwen's class to the hall for some ngee ann school talk.. school of business and sccountancy. My teacher didnt notice i wasnt in class anyway ahha.. i was too lazy to attend social studies lesson its so boring.. hai.. tuition was cancelled ahah in fact i cancelled it but i went to meet dear for a little while after his training in school.. have dinner and pass him the shirt i bought for him.. I wanted to get a bag from flash n splash but they have no more stocks left.. sighs.. i like it man but dear say he rather me buy the shirt for him den spending 80 buck on that bag.. the bag is freaking nice and that kinda bag is kinda hard to find too.. so sad... =( ahha but never mind at least i got something ... which is that shirt for him.. and he likes it.. ahha it cost half the price of my bag.. ahha

2004-07-20T18:41:00.000+08:00

20 July 04 6:42pm
I'm much better now.. but still having cough i have been avoiding fried, spicy food and cold drinks but i dun seem to get any better.. hehe.. Dear right now having a match at Yio Chu kang playing for under 19? ahah yeap.. he will call me later .. Tomorrow is Racial Harmony Day! ahah will b able to skip a few lessons.. ahah yey! haha Prelims are like a few mths away.. Everyone mus start studying already!! there ain't much time.. and same goes for me.. i'm so busy everyday mus stay back for this and dat... and i havent complete my art.. abt 50 more days to my art "deadline".. My art teacher is gonna kill my class.. we are all so lazy and have not done much! I mus really work on my art soon.. if not i wont b able to hand it up.. hai..

2004-07-17T23:49:00.000+08:00

17 July 04 11:50pm
I'm still sick.. wad the hell! ahah i hate being sick.. it makes me feel so pathetic ahah but i still got my darling to care for me.. although i'm still sick i went down to police academy to catch his game ahah i am late again ahah he knew i was going to b ..ahh.. but the bus was freaking long and i walked to the gate there was a notice there " pls use the front gate near PIE expressway" i was damn pissed cause it was a long way in to that gate and i was already late for like 15 mins by the time i got to the game it was already 330... argh! aaha and i missed the try dat dear scored.. ahha but wadever it is SCC won again.. against Police Acad.. yea hmm.. 38-3? i think so?.. those police have like so many malays and dey were rough man.. i waited till the second match's second half and i went off wif my darling back to SCC to bathe.. we had dinner together somewhere at suntec dere.. and took a long ride on bus 80 back to sengkang... we brought miss GG out for a walk and he went off.. he is damn tired after having to play in that match.. aha and i jus took medicine it is starting to make me feel drowsy..........

2004-07-15T15:09:00.000+08:00

15 July 04 3:10pm
Yesterdae's oral was rubbish ahha i was laughing all the time .. er yes i saying rubbish.. ahha so gonna fail.. argh.. heck its over.. i was thinking of coming hm todae during sch cause i have flu cough and sore throat.. yuck.. and i miss my darling.. ahha i feel so sleepy and shitty.. my throats hurts big time! i wanna sleep soon.. yey! tmr i get to see my darling i will b over at his place after sch.. cause i wanna swim at his place there.. i miss swimmming!! ahah and this sat there will b a match again at police acad... i shld b going.. alone? aahhaa

2004-07-13T17:25:00.000+08:00

13 July 04 5:20pm
Jus got hm frm school.. haha no practical todae.. it was cancelled becus of the o levels oral.. hehe i was intending to go to dear's hus to swim.. i miss swimming.. hhaa but due to the rain ... i decided not to go .. cause it is so hard to go over when it rains.. cause i've no umbrella or anything.. hahah.. i was playing under the rain wif mindy while waiting for gwen end her orals.. ahah we were so wet.. haha damn disgusting... our uniform was drenched and it stick to our skins.. eee.. hmm tmr i'll b having my orals and definately i will talk rubbish.. argh!! haha wadever lar.. but i gotta do well for this cause i'm planning to retake my chinese written paper again.. yea.. its so boring.. and i'm tired so sleepy again.. yawns.. hmm..